[30-7-2012]

你想过你的未来是怎么样的嘛？
想过毕业后要干什么吗？


想过未来身边那个伴会是谁吗？

如果未来不那么神秘
我们对未来还会有什么憧憬

我开始害怕面对毕业
开始害怕自己的年龄快2字头了

我对未来没有把握
没有把握会让父母骄傲
没有把握之后的日子能为自己的选择负责

好怕
离开父母给我的安乐窝
好怕
好怕好怕

好想有个水晶球
让我能看到未来
未来的我，爱着我的工作吗？
未来的我，还会像现在一样偶尔耍耍脾气吗？
还是，经过那么多得磨练
已经把真实的自己藏起来了
把自己变成刺猬
不让人看清自己的内心

[5-7-2012] Obsessed with this Lovely Song❤

Better Me


演唱: 薛凯琪


远处海港传来阵阵船笛
我一直飘零到被你拣起
如今望著反映窗户玻璃
有个我陌生又熟悉


喔 I can Smile a little more
Sing a little more
Feel a little more
全因为你


说好了要为幸福 一天天地练习
练习 Laugh a little more
Love myself a little more
要学会更加善待我自己
为你我变成了 Better me


什么距离都不算是真的分离
想念和默契能代替一切言语
有一天生命会老去 还好谢谢有你


在你眼中 I see the better in me
Coz I can Smile a little more
Sing a little more
Feel a little more
全因为你


说好了要为幸福 一天天地练习
练习 Laugh a little more
Love myself a little more
要学会更加善待我自己
为你我变成了 Better me


就是那么神奇
从前的错都有意义
教我抛开所有猜疑 也许
我也美丽 值得一个奇迹


喔 我的眼泪会坠落
绝不是因为懦弱
而是感谢天让我遇见你
不然今天就不能 如此地有勇气


Now I promise to you
And I can swear to you
为你我 一定加倍 珍惜我自己
做一个值得你 骄傲的 Better me
一个值得你 爱的Better me
---------------------------------------------------
XOXO

             

[26062012]明天PRESENTATION,我开始语无伦次了~~ o(╯□╰)o

╮(╯▽╰)╭
明天PRESENTATION
每次看到这个字，我就很紧张
每次说不紧张，
又有几次站在这么多人面前不紧张啊
自信，不结巴又不是生下来就会的
可是，像我那么【默默】的人 ↖(^ω^)↗
站在那么多人面前我真的的很怕讲错或者忘词，或者突然间脑袋空白
明天早上没上课
（ESR应该是没有吧~！！ 我真的好不喜欢上830的课啊~！！ 而且还是连续4天都必须830前要到学校）

今天不用上课我不知开心了多久
赫赫
一上到3楼结果看到一群同学走向我
好才有认识的告诉我老师生病所以没课
不然可能我会走到门前确认了才走
好才我速度够快，在15分钟内就出校门
不然那RM1多不划算啊
很自豪的说~\(≧▽≦)/~

说真的
真的好幸运
本来今天这科会有评测
笨死了我却把它记成明天
好才老师生病
笨死了我忘记今天会要讨论WALT DISNEY的东西
笨死了我起床时才记得（重点！ 那时已经730了）
好才老师生病
╭(╯3╰)╮
很坏呢。。
感觉在很高兴老师生病没来
哈哈~~o(≧v≦)o~~好棒
不过，很感谢主


WOOOHOO~~
明天也不用上课，也不用那么早起本来~！！
是这样的
可是刚刚收到一封让我很懊恼的讯息
阿姨叫我去接外公婆
重点~！！飞机抵达时间是830
哎~~~~我听到梦被粉碎的声音
赫赫╮(╯﹏╰）╭

WINTER拿了科ASSIGNMENT BASE的UNIT
其实也不错，
虽然是不知道是老师觉得好玩
还是这个老师的风格本来就是酱
我真的好希望他能给我们多点时间复习
（好像连续抱怨这科两篇了(⊙o⊙)…）
但是想想其实FINAL考一科就觉得有点爽~~
可以早点回家咯~~~~ (>^ω^<)喵
可是早点回的话，
我家的傻瓜羊怎么办呢
好挣扎啊~~ (+﹏+)~狂晕

[20120624] 吃得好，心情靓❤

考试成绩出了，没有考到想象中的遭。。
好开心哦~~ ❤
我发现，原来到现在我都一直忘了告诉父母我的成绩

昨天是端午节，
人在他乡倍思亲
好想家哦。。
昨天爸妈都没打给我 ╭(╯3╰)╮
他们又去哪烛光晚餐了
好难过哦我~~
他们怎么可以这样~~ 只顾他们的二人世界
╮(╯﹏╰）╭

杰杰的姨婆有做粽子给他吃
赫赫，我就A了他几个 (>^ω^<)喵
我第一次吃红豆的粽子
原本觉得很奇怪
可是，吃着吃着就觉得好好吃哦
红豆绵绵的，甜甜的
糯米并不咸，连同红豆一块咬下去会先觉得甜甜的
可是过后就会有糯米的香气
好好吃哦 （¯﹃¯）
我有买颗芋头肉粽
也很好吃哦，芋头甜甜的
好吃好吃(∩_∩)
发现自己还蛮爱吃甜食的
可是，我看过网络文章说吃太多甜食会有助于长皱纹哦~~
不好不好
该戒掉甜食了
/(ㄒoㄒ)/~~

这个学期我遇到了变态老师
我有4天早上都是他的课
王八蛋的，他很喜欢前一天下午发ARTICLE给我们读，然后隔天就来个讨论还是什么考试
真的好烦哦
不过，这科应该算蛮容易的了
因为大家都说老师说什么就做什么，铁定PASS
心里难免会想说【真的吗？！】
有 啊-捏 好的事？
ASSIGNMENT BASE的科目真的让我很恐惧
感觉哪里做错了，可能会害到朋友，也会影响成绩

昨天我去了ALFRESCO
和我的大比去约会
好久没有两个人一起出去了
通常都是一大群人
那里真的好热哦。。！！
重点是我们的位置好角落，好才我穿长裤不然铁定被叮了几个包子回来
东西。。。。很贵。。╭(╯^╰)╮
可是很好吃

今天晚上我又跟12位美女们去吃SHARING PLANET
啊我是怎么了
怎么天天都吃大餐
我的减肥计划跑哪里去了
我吃了CHICKEN CORDON BLUE
好。。。腻啊
而且很热，我的牙龈都在抗议了 o(>﹏<)o
回来马上冲杯凉茶喝
不然铁定失【声】了
发现这碗好像没想象中的好吃
他淋的酱搭配起来很奇怪
而且里头的CHEESE好少，一点都不觉得有CHEESE呢
可是肉很厚啦。。
吃得有点腻
(╯3╰)‘

心情真好
把肚子喂抱抱
是最开心的事~~
❤❤


赫赫~~明天星期一
但是不会有MONDAY BLUES
因为明天没有上课~~
WOOHHOOO~~~!!
可是还是要去学校(╯﹏╰）

晚安大家~~
我要抱着我的大肚子去睡觉了~~

我的梦

20120613 我假期K了很多戏~~

2012已经过了一半
大家还安好？
从宿舍搬出去了
住进自己的家里
感觉良好
厨房，厕所干干净净 {当然是因为处女座的我很努力刷马桶~~ O(∩_∩)O哈哈哈~}


我家宝贝羊也到古晋陪着我，
好感谢她，
不然我要一个人呆在那不熟悉的环境，
不熟悉的家里
可想而知是多么的孤单，多么的无聊


上个学期有点小插曲
也许，也有点小误会
人与人之前
难免都会有小插曲，小误会
处理不好
顶多当不了朋友
顶多不再是朋友
就那么简单
人与人相处
难免会踩到别人的地雷
把别人小心隐藏的面目拿到灼热的太阳底下曝嗮
虽然表面上坚强
但心里那跟刺却扎得很深
误会导致的结
有时你越想解开，他却因为拉扯而越来越紧
到最后，只剩用剪刀把那缘分剪断


有时觉得
处理这些东西好累
怕说多了，别人觉得我多嘴
怕说多了，别人觉得我鸡婆
怕说多了，产生误会
怕说多了，别人疏远我


你，也为了这些事烦恼吗？
有时，我也是
选择性忘记这些
选择性逃避这些
有时，也选择性不听
让自己好过点
心好受点

考试前的STUDY WEEK和考试期间竟然看了两个SEASON的VAMPIRE DIARIES

放假又看完了SEASON3 好像又要出SEASON4了。。

好期待

真的好喜欢哦~~ 

故事里头他们就像无法斩断的孽缘

两兄弟爱上同一个女人，就像100年前将他们同时爱上将他们变成吸血鬼的‘主人’

有次我看到半也还不甘愿去睡觉

小羊开了我房间门，我还真是吓了一大跳。。

没错啦。。

我是胆小鬼

却喜欢装成什么都不怕。。

回到家里

和妈妈一起看韩国剧‘拥抱太阳的月亮’

还真的是赚人的热泪

我妈真的是哭个稀里哗啦

不过，真的是恨好看哟~~

韩国剧总是

他爱她，她也爱他 

但是第二个他爱她，第二个她爱他

然后就是血腥的事发生

然后最后HAPPY EVER AFTER

大家说对不对？

哦·~~ 这部也不错
超级搞笑的
周汤豪好帅哦
我以为女主角最后会回到男主角的怀抱
结果女主角还是选择了深爱着她，在他最无助的时候拉她一把的男人
真是赞阿~ ~\(≧▽≦)/~

这部香港剧也好刺激哦

每分每秒都无法浪费的医生

他们做的每个选择关乎病人的生命

所以必须，‘精’ ‘准’

虽然有些名词我真的是搞不懂有什么差别

但是真的是很好看得一部戏 ❤

我之前一直觉得我不会去看这部的

因为我已经看完了那4本书

但是，还是去下了

毕竟视觉效果和从字面上想象差很多

所以我好期待PART2出了然后下载看

赫赫。。感觉很贱。。

不过也有可能去戏院看。。

我看到女主角就想到之前在面书看到的一张照片

照片说着女主角不管高兴，兴奋，难过ETC. 都是一个表情--面无表情

我注意了。。

他真的是怎么样都是那么一无表情

有时我却觉得他的脸好沧桑

也许她公司是那么包装她的吧？？ 

MIB3我看了两次

第一次都好还不错

看第二次，我真的睡在戏院，只有后面精彩部分有醒

第一次，这么爱睡

我发现诗巫KINGS的椅子好硬哦。。

真的坐得很不舒服。。 

好想念古晋MBO的椅子

o(╯□╰)o

MIB有点搞笑，也带点刺激

还算不错呱？

我等会儿将搭45分钟的飞机抵达古晋

好不想回去那里

古晋让我觉得时而兴奋，时而心烦

兴奋，因为有很多地方可以去

心烦，因为即将面对恐怖的考验

WINTER TERM短短，却要在那么短的时间内完成2个UNIT

抱怨归抱怨

我真的好担心SEM 1 的成绩。。

20号成绩将公布

如果我下个BLOG很EMO的话，你们就知道我考得怎么样了·~

赫赫~~

XOXO

❤❤❤❤

[12-12-11]Leisure? Movies ^.^

Do you like my new background? =]

I'm so excited~~!! 3 more days I will be free from all these Shits. =] Exam's gonna end soon. I hope I won't fail any subjects this sem. I think I won't but, its really going to drive me crazy waiting so long for my results. If i didn't do well, parents will be disappointed, but this will make me so stress. I think after taking several final exams in Uni, the stress level kind of decreases. I will be in a total 'Down' mood when I face exam in the first sem, then when it comes to second sem, I'm like, 'oh, its exam again, ok~~~ i will do my revision later, let's watch a movie' or something. Might not be a good sign, but watching movies tends to lower my stress level, and I can put more attention in my studies, thereafter. I finished several movies during this period though. Thanks to my friends for their movies. =] =]

This [All About Love] is about a Lesbian couple. Falling in love again when they met again after a long while. The awkward moment is that they were pregnant at the same time, of course, with different guys. Marcy broke Anita's heart, but the fire in her won back the heart of Anita. 

Maybe this is what we says, only girls know what is best for the girl. Even a look at the face, you know what she wants, because you are a girl yourself. Some part of it is quite 18X, but not to the extreme. I will give it a 3.9 out of 5, if i am to rate. I like how the story went, but Marcy is kinda a frivolous person. =[ Well, its still worth the watch because of the love story and the guys who got them pregnant are fighting to stand a chance to win their hearts. There are several scene quite funny when the guys meet with a rebuff. 

Another one [Sherlock Holmes]. I think everyone is very familiar with this character. In this movie, he analyze every move he made, even when he's wrestling. He knew which action he should made to make his opponent drop to their knees, even end up in the hospital, even the duration of hospitality. I find this part quite charming. I would really want to have this kind of mind, to think everything with a blink of the eyes.

Its about a person claiming himself to be able to rise from the death, but however are playing 'tricks', carefully designed relationship between every scene. I like this movie very much. Strong British accent, and very old fashioned clothing and buildings. This movie, i strongly recommended to you guys if you like detective fictions. =]

Next is a Japanese Movie [The 10 promises to my dog]. Great movie for dog lovers. Its about a little girl who loves small animals and longed to have a pet of her own. It shows the strong relationship between human and dogs. However, humans will forget the promises they have made, and break their promises. The little girl grew up and became a vet, because of her job and new life in a new city, she seldom comes back. She even shout at her dog (named Socks) to stay out of the house, they were not that close anymore.

Socks still remain loyal to her and keep her company when she needs her. When she wanted to fill the gap between them, its too late, and Socks died of old age.

Another Japanese Movieis the [The Handsome Suit]. About a fat guy, when he wore the incredible suit, he became handsome. He is so indulge in the world of being handsome that he left his true-self back at his mind. The moral i found in this movie is that you are what you should be. Even if you are fat, you can still find someone God made specially for you. Don't be too self-abased. Your looks don't really matter, as long as you have a beautiful personality, people will like you just the way you are. =]

Oh, wow~~ A long time movie [Ice Kacang Puppy Love], which I don't have time to watch. I think you guys already watch this. First love, is a beautiful one, and is always the special one. No matter how many relationship you have, the first love, you will always remember. I still think the [Barley Beng] character in the movie is sooo funny =]

I finished the Honk Kong Series [Forensic Heroes], always always am in love with this kind of movies. This series really is so high-tech. Everything is touch screen, my gosh, so damn nice. Love this kind of movies cause I can learn some facts from them. Once I thought of becoming a forensic, but thinking of spending my life in the mortuary, really drives me crazy. I wanna face living human... =]

There's still a lot of movies which I cannot really post them one by one. Well, I think I sucks in this post. Anyway, I really do enjoy movies.
I thought I would want to go watch Breaking Dawn-Twilight in the cineplex. My friends told me a lot of people said its not that good.

I guess the first part would be their honeymoon in the XXX isle which I cannot recall the name now. If its true, and the baby thing is not in this part, maybe the 2nd part would be more interesting. Girlish novel, a friend once told me. Duh, that's what parents always do to their daughters. Implant their daughters with the prince charming, fairy tales, then when they grow up, girls will find it too illogical; some let go of those dreams, some still hold on. Whose fault is this anyway？ hmmm......

Heard that this movie is quite nice. Well, when I am free, I would like to watch it, either in the theater or online, I think this movie will not be shown in the theater already.
I watched a similar movie, RepoMen

If you are sick of those Yucky scenes, i.e with the killings and bloody stuffs. I think you shouldn't watch this movie. Its sort of, violent in some way. 
If you don't, go for it, its really soooooooo GOOD!!

Thanks for finish reading this totally SUCKX blog-post. =]
Thanks for your patience.
I think I should really work out my English, Its getting worst and worst. ╮(╯▽╰)╭

Hey， Got my name on It ^.^

[06-12-2011] Blogging AgAiN after a long while~ ❤

Study is not the worse part, the worst is you have to pass through all the hardship-from preparing exams, last minute panic, confusions, until you sit inside the exam hall, blah out all the things you could remember, until you finish your last paper, only then, you can enjoy your holiday, sweet holiday.

Abandoned blogger, Long time no see. Having been so lazy to update my blog, and feel so tired of doing so. Lives goes on, but memories don't last. Humans are forgetful, especially myself. Even things occur a minute ago will slip past my mind and could not recall. This is awful. I don't like being forgetful. Couldn't figure out since when i became like this forgetful. Maybe, i'm just too lazy to remember all those stuffs. Maybe, I just don't care. Its really annoying when you remember that you have to do something at this particular moment, then when you are carried away, you have to stand there and stare blankly to recall what you should do. Trust me, this is irritating.

Fallen in love with ribbons. But somehow, it makes me think its too girlish for me. Sometimes, I would want to be like a beautiful flower blossom in Spring. Somehow, I feel its just a dream, its too hard to reach, and i'm just so pessimistic. I had overcome the hunger, just to reduce my meals to 2 a day and barely take in any food during my high schools. Well, things really changes over the time. Humans' willpower are somehow, weak. I'm not saying everyone is like so. But, i'm the weak one. In high school, for a particular year, i really did so. Even stop taking fried, oily, spicy food, especially fast foods, Laksa. My complexion was better. Maybe also due to enough and most importantly have to sleep early. After UEC, everything changes. Stop being so conscious about my weight and barely force myself to stand on the weighing machine. Time passes, I have never stop or do anything. I should have tamed myself. Like always, I regret for me making decisions and regret at the end. After coming to Uni, it became worst, and OMG, much much much more worst. 

However, I really miss my old times. You know what, the worst part of keeping fit is when you enjoy food sooooo very much. 

Anyway, I am still processing, molding. Wish me luck, guys =] 

I just finished one of my four subjects this morning. Bid bye bye to my 'Macroeconomics' slides and stuff, and say hello to my 'Company Law'. Since its an open book test, it doesn't make me feel like im on a hot-pan and somewhat, worried. I feel ashamed, I regret (yes, regret again) for not going to classes. I don't know where to start. "Leave everything to God, he will work his miracles." The miracles I really want him to work is to give me a heart to study, put my heart into studies. I won't want to repeat any of my subjects, I think no one would like this to happen to them, so do I. 

I don't want my parents to worry about my studies. I want them to know I have grown up, I can take care of my studies without them urging me to study. 

Well, there would still be exam next week. One on Monday (Financial Management) and another on Thursday (FIS). I hope everything will go through smoothly. 

After all this torturing, its ~~~~~

PLAY TIME!!!!!!

Its always worth all those hardship when you know you will taste the sweetness at the end. Yes, Its worth everything. Do not loose hope in yourself, God and everything. God really is great. He guides me through the darkest moment of my life. When I'm upset, alone, scared, its always comforting to know that someone is watching over me. 

Isn't it wonderful?